Here's a little funny story.
I'm profoundly deaf, as you all know by now. I became deaf at three years old, got a cochlear implant to help me hear when i was 4. I am now 17 years old.
Throughout my entire elementary school life, I had no friends, children were shallow back then, didn't want to associate with the weird kid. Middle school was the same way.
When i got to high school, I finally got some friends. I became friends with a lot of people and close friends with a smaller smarter group, nerds as you would call them.
But the girls all remember how they didn't want to talk with me in elementary and middle school, so all of them consider me just a friend, someone to talk with intellectually, to work with in groups, etc etc.
How do I explain to my parents and siblings that I don't have a girlfriend and probably never going to have a relationship with a girl in high school? Heck, all my life I thought I wasn't handsome enough for people to like, not smart enough, too funny to be taken seriously.
That doesn't mean I'm homosexual, asexual or narcissistic. I like girls, and I like one particular girl.
So I am in the same boat as you, problem is that i want a relationship, but never know if I am handsome enough to be attractive or if I am clever enough. I am not in one simply because of how people used to act and that no one ever showed interest in me.



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