(Derogating on my promise not to come back for a year. Simply put, this post wants to come out.)
Armstrong is gone. That saddens me a great deal. For a six year old kid back in 1969, that man represented the best of humanity to me. That he himself always shied away from the role of hero didn't lessen that in subsequent years. Rather, it pointed towards something else. Something that needs to be brought back to light these days.
No one who wasn't alive in the fifties and sixties can truly understand the feeling of optimism, of confidence and of faith in ourselves that was around then and lingered to the early seventies. I caught the tail end of it. I saw it. I felt it.
Of course, it didn't exist by itself. Mixed and intertwined were apprehension, doubt, at times despair, at times downright fear. Mainly caused by the ongoing cold war but I personally don't believe any epoch of human history
is devoid of those feelings. But what is not always present is this feeling of hope, of optimism, of knowing, just knowing that we can do miracles. We... Us humans...
It was present back then. For the simple reason that we did perform miracles. Indeed, we awed ourselves! Starting with the splitting of the atom (Don't bother... I know all of the for and against in this matter. That is beside the point I'm trying to make here), we proved to ourselves that there is nothing humanity can't achieve.
As Armstrong and numerous others have said, going to the moon wasn't such a miracle in itself. We just decided to go.
We just decided to go.
Do you see what I'm trying to tell you? Neil's death provides me with an opportunity to say this to you. To tell you, with Faulkner, that humanity will not only endure. It will prevail.
It has been one of the saddest things in my life to see that feeling, that faith in ourselves largely disappear from the landscape. I don't know why, but it seems to me us humans can't sustain it for very long. It had happened before. The kind of 'revolution fever' that gripped the western world at the end of the 18th century had it's roots in such a faith. That we can do it. That we can take our destiny in our own hands. And that of all human virtues, our courage stands highest. And again, I know very well the consequences aren't always what we intend. Indeed, that is probably the main reason we can't sustain that faith.
But I would SO MUCH LOVE to see this again in my lifetime. As I have written in here somewhere before, there is no greater tragedy in the universe that to see hope die. And this world of today often has very little hope to offer, especially to the young. And that is so god-damned wrong...
Yeah... Maybe this is only the old frenchman waxing nostalgic about the 'old days'. Maybe...
But I don't think so. I say to you that with everything wrong about us, everything bad and evil with us, we are a wonder of the universe.
Optimism will return. Faith in ourselves will return. Someday. Only, when it finally does, I hope it stays.
I hope it stays...


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