Okay... seriously... it's better to get that "I'm dead" mentality out of your head... I was a strait up newb flat out. I got attacked a bunch... I learned... you can have the best plan ever... and still it's difficult to start out... Nothing is going to make it easy... except remembering it's a game and you can start over if it all goes wrong... I have a job and no access to my computer at work... it's been difficult... but it is doable...